When I was seventeen, a single truth unraveled the life I thought I knew: I was pregnant. That revelation cost me my home, my father’s love, and every shred of familiarity I once relied on. I had imagined anger or disappointment, maybe even a fight that would eventually soften into forgiveness. Instead, my father chose silence. He looked at me the way he looked at broken machines in his auto garages—something defective, not worth repair. That was the day he opened the door and told me to leave.
“Then go,” he said in a tone that was calm and sharp enough to cut through me. “Do it on your own.”
He didn’t shout. He didn’t cry. His voice was even, as if he had simply decided to clear out junk that no longer fit in his tidy, controlled life. My father wasn’t cruel by nature, but he was cold. His love always came with fine print, and when I no longer fit into the contract, he canceled me out of his world.
At seventeen, I found myself standing on the sidewalk with nothing but a duffel bag and the faint pulse of life inside me. The father of my baby stuck around for two weeks before disappearing. He left behind excuses and silence, and I was truly on my own.
Those first years were brutal. I rented a tiny studio apartment where the heater rattled but never worked, where cockroaches appeared like uninvited guests. I stocked grocery shelves during the day, scrubbed office floors at night, and whispered prayers into the dark, begging for strength I didn’t always feel. There was no baby shower, no proud family waiting at the hospital when I delivered. It was just me and this fragile little boy, his fist clenching mine as if to promise that I was not alone after all.
I named him Liam.
He became my anchor in a world that had abandoned me. Every single day after his birth, I woke up for him. I sacrificed for him. I endured for him. There were moments I thought I might break, but then he would smile or babble or cling to me, and I knew I couldn’t. He was my reason.