Iām Ryan, Iām 19, and my hands are still shaking as I write this. What happened feels like one of those stories where karma takes its time, then shows up with receipts.
Before everything went sideways, life was simple. My mom, Melissa, loved me out loudāFriday night mac and cheese, forehead kisses I pretended Iād outgrown, the beat-up Subaru that always smelled like coffee and rain. When I was nine, breast cancer took her fast. Before she died, she set up a $25,000 trust for me to receive at eighteen. She said, āCollege, a first placeāsomething that makes you proud. Itās yours.ā My dad promised heād protect it. I believed him.
For a while he tried. He worked, showed up for science fairs, did his best. Then he met Tracy. She arrived with warm brownies and warmer compliments, the kind of smile that makes people relax. A year later she married my dad and moved in with her son, Connorāmy age, all swagger and designer sneakers. The house shifted around them. My momās things ādisappeared,ā replaced by what Tracy called āa fresh start.ā
When my dad died of a heart attack three years later, the floor gave way again. Tracy became my legal guardian and stopped pretending. I was āthat boy.ā Connor got a new gaming setup and, eventually, a Jeep. I got his stained shirts and a thin mattress in the basement because I was ātoo messyā for a real room. They ate first; I ate what was left. If I asked for a winter coat, I got a lecture on gratitude. Connor liked to stomp on the floor above my head and call me ārat boy.ā I learned to stare at the ceiling and wait for eighteen.