Empty Fridge
My name is Eleanor, and I am seventy years old. I have spent most of those years believing that if you work hard enough, love generously enough, and sacrifice without complaint, the world will eventually treat you with at least a little kindness in return. I believed this through the hard years when my husband Arthur and I had nothing, through the stretch of time when we were building something from bare ground, and through the two long years I watched him lose his fight with cancer in a hospital room that smelled of antiseptic and quiet grief. I believed it right up until the morning I stood in my own kitchen with nothing in my refrigerator but half a bottle of water and a heel of stale bread wrapped in a paper napkin, and my grandson Liam opened that refrigerator door and looked at me like he had just witnessed something terrible.
“Grandma, why are you starving if you got Grandpa’s inheritance?”
He was twenty-two years old, home on a break from law school, and his voice had that quality young men sometimes get when they are trying very hard to stay calm. His hand still rested on the refrigerator door. The yellowish light from inside the appliance lit up his face from below, and in that light he looked so much like Arthur that my chest ached. I opened my mouth. Nothing came out.
Before I could find a single word to offer him, I heard footsteps in the hallway. My son Julian appeared in the doorway between the kitchen and the living room, where half a dozen of his office colleagues and their wives were already settling into chairs, pouring expensive wine, setting down platters of food I had not been consulted about. Julian was wearing a new blazer. He looked well-fed and relaxed, and he was smiling the way men smile when they want to be admired.
He said it in front of all of them. He said it with the ease of someone announcing a charitable donation, his chest slightly forward, his chin slightly up.
“I gave her money to my mother-in-law, Carol, to buy her a house. She raised my wife all by herself. She worked her whole life. She deserved something of her own.”
