I called the county helpline at 2:11 in the morning, sitting on the linoleum between the stove and the sink because that was the only corner of our trailer that did not feel like it was actively caving in on itself. I had tried the living room first, but the draft coming through the gap in the window frame made the cold feel personal. The bathroom was too small to breathe properly. The space between the stove and the sink was just barely big enough to fold myself into, and I had discovered early on that small contained spaces could hold you up when nothing else would.

I was thirteen years old and I had been awake since eleven trying to get Noah warm enough to fall asleep. He was six. He had one sock on and one sock missing and had been too tired to care about finding the other one, and he had curled himself into a knot on the floor because our mattress had given out three weeks before, the springs working their way through the surface like something trying to escape, and we had put it out by the dumpster and replaced it with towels folded into a laundry basket. He looked smaller than six in that basket. He always looked smaller than he was when he was trying not to complain.

The woman who answered the helpline did not rush me. That was the first thing I noticed, that she gave the silence room to be what it was instead of hurrying me past it. I told her nobody was bleeding, that I was just thirteen and my little brother was asleep on the floor and I could not figure out how to make any of it better before morning. She asked me to tell her what was happening right now, in the present, just that. So I did. I told her my mother cleaned offices nights and then drove deliveries until six, that she would be home around dawn, that we were okay in the sense that nothing was on fire and no one was hurt, that I just did not know how to make this better tonight.

She asked what would help the most before sunrise. Not what would fix everything. Just before sunrise.
I looked at Noah in the laundry basket. One sock. Eyes moving under the lids the way they do when a person is almost asleep but not quite safe enough to let go completely.

“A bed,” I said, and something broke open in my chest when I said it, the kind of break that does not hurt so much as release, and I pressed my fist against my mouth so the sound of it would not wake him. “Just one bed where he won’t wake up cold.”