I went inside and washed my face and discovered I was still half wearing the paper gown from the exam room, which meant I had walked out of the medical office in it and driven twenty-two minutes home without noticing. I changed into a sweatshirt. Made tea, poured it out. Made coffee, poured that out too. Stood with the refrigerator open for a full minute and closed it again. My body kept moving through its routines while nobody was driving it.

Garrett got home at six-fifteen that evening, kissed me on the forehead, and asked how the ultrasound had gone.
“Baby’s healthy,” I said. “Strong heartbeat.”“That’s amazing.”He smiled.

We had leftover chicken for dinner and he told me about the jackknifed truck with the energy of a man recounting an event of genuine historical significance. Fourteen pallets of sparkling water. He expected me to appreciate this, and I nodded at all the right moments. Something important needs to be understood about Garrett: this man had burned toast three times a week for nine years, could not fold a fitted sheet under any circumstances, and once asked me in complete seriousness whether Belgium was in South America. And somehow, without anyone noticing, he had been maintaining an entire second household in another zip code for over a year.

The logistics alone should have impressed someone.That night, after he fell asleep with the instant finality that had always annoyed me and now made me furious, I took my phone into the bathroom and locked the door and sat on the edge of the tub, the same spot where I had laughed until I hiccuped four months earlier. I opened our joint savings account.

The balance was twelve thousand eight hundred and forty-seven dollars.

I stared at it and scrolled up and checked the account number and stared again. Same account. The one that had held forty-one thousand three hundred dollars eighteen months earlier. The one we had been building together for ten years. Twenty-eight thousand four hundred and fifty-three dollars gone, withdrawn in careful, quiet increments: three hundred here, four hundred there, six hundred occasionally. Never large enough to trigger an alert from the bank. Never large enough to catch my attention during my monthly glance at the screen.

I took forty-three screenshots with hands shaking badly enough that I accidentally opened the camera twice and photographed my own chin.